Let me just start by telling you where this madness came from. You see, my faith is bipolar. I’m not even joking. One day my faith is manic, and the next day my faith may be as depressed as PeeWee Herman’s booking agents.
I’ve been trying to self-diagnose the problem with my personal faith lately and it’s been very interesting. I’ve decided that I’m going to strive to remain obedient no matter the state of my faith.
The problem lies in how much I trust God, or even believe He’s there. For me, it’s an unpredictable roller-coaster.
Today, I don’t know if you would call it an epiphany, but I had a moment. A simple and stupid moment. I realized that I trust traffic lights far more than I have ever trusted this God that I supposedly put all my stock in. Chew on that for a minute and I’ll bet that you do the same thing sometimes.
I don’t ever question traffic lights. If it’s green, I’m going. I don’t ever doubt that the lights for the people on either side of me are red and that I’m safe to proceed. Nope, I just go. It’s green, I go. I trust my entire life and continuation of my existance with the very operation and functioning of that man-made traffic signal.
But sometimes when I think God is giving me a green light, I’ll stop. I’ll doubt. I’ll freeze up. Or maybe I’ll just park the car altogether.
If I think God is offering a yellow light, the way I respond really just depends on my mood. Nothing more, nothing less. I’m sure He is less than enthusiastic about that.
God can drop a red light in my face and I will run that thing 10 times before I’m ever smart/obedient enough to stop. Those first ten times can be killing me spiritually but I blow it off. I may run a real red light, putting my whole life at stake though, and likely not even flinch.
You may think this is the corniest post I’ve ever written, but unfortunately it’s the sad reality of many of our faith-walks.
God must hate traffic lights. He’s a jealous God.
“You must not bow down to them or worship them, for I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God who will not tolerate your affection for any other gods.” Exodus 20:5
We are obedient to the things that we trust, believe in, and maybe even worship. How sad a state is my faith in if I’m trusting a freakin’ stop light more than my very creator?
God, help me with my unbelief….